| In searching for inspiration I came across a blog on Jewlicious by a guy who calls himself, In the Middle. Having just returned from a trip to Israel, he wrote an update on elements of the country that particularly struck him (http://www.jewlicious.com). Among his comical musings were insights on the amount of construction everywhere, the rising housing costs, his amazement of how Israelis can afford such costs on an Israeli salary, the number of cars in Tel Aviv, the disappointing show at the Tel Aviv Museum of Art, the fact that many Ultra-Orthodox men and women are now working due to cuts in government spending, and the new Beit Habubot CD. Overall he saw Israel as a booming economy and ended his piece contemplating the idea of moving here (if he could find a job).
I was struck by his comments not because they were new or particularly insightful, but because I had internalized such observations in an entirely different way: not as a testament to Israel's achievements and vibrancy, but rather elements I was struggling with on a personal level. For example, rather than thinking it a sign of Israel’s growing economy, I was viewing the plethora of construction bitterly due to the fact I have no idea when I could ever afford such a place. Same with all those cars in Tel Aviv. All I can think of is that parking in that city is impossible and it makes me crazy. I don’t think, 'wow, look at all the people who can afford cars!'
My parents were just in town and they, like In the Middle, could also not help commenting on how good the country looked. I, however, found myself stewing over certain fears, complaints and frustrations I have about living here. It's real life now. I have real life problems. I am now an insider.
Chanukah marks the half-way point for most and the end for some who have come to Israel on a MASA program. Many of you who came wanted to come on a long-term program in order to get an intimate look at the inside of this place. So far you have seen and experienced much more than those who come on these short visits. I urge you to take a step back and contemplate how you saw this country when you first arrived and how you see it now. It's important to have an awareness of both perspectives: that of the foreigner and that of the insider. I too need to remind myself to take a step back and see Israel as the remarkable country it is. I also need to allow myself to be frustrated with certain realities here.
Welcome to the view from the inside.
Happy Chanukah!
Erin,
MAP Particpant Coordinator & Footprints Editor
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